to feel as carefree as a primary sch kid again...

prestige is the real currency in society. it is the stepping stone to fame n the precursor of wealth too. as i'm typing this, my 2nd bro is laffing away. he doesnt believe all this. he thinks mesos is the real currency in society. btw, mesos is the maple currency. i didnt want to believe all this either (probably cuz i dun think i'll get much prestige in my life anyway... so y not self-denial eh?). in primary sch, i was really confident of myself (in less flattering words, tt means cocky). i cud get away with studying the day b4 exams n not worry abt wad wud happen if i didnt do well. now i worry... just a bit too much. worries include even trivial stuff like: wad if i submit ucas late? wad if i dun manage to impress the oxford interviewer? primary sch concerns include the likes of: shud i tell my mom abt the lost library book? will the teacher scold me abt my blue elephant? groan... these concerns sound retarded but i'd rather haf these back. sleep at wadeva time i want. n FEEL SUPERIOR.

wad sparked this entry was the complications involved with sth as simple as ucas. i realized tt i'm not very sure of the path i wanna take (i just want it to be as fun as possible... ya typical alfred rite?). does aeronautical engineering sound fun? n all the talk abt psc scholarships being out of grasp, out of sight. it's tiring me out. i never once had to worry abt entry to a school like chinese high being out of sight before. i never had to aim for a scholarship before, n i had no trouble in envisaging myself in hcjc or chinese high. this sux.